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[May 18 07 ` 11 29 pm] |
ok, so i decided that since i'm now grounded and have nothing else to do, i might as well get back into lj.
for any out there who might be reading, which i'm sure is very few, you might be bored.
so my last entry was like in december about my ex boyfriend sean. well basically, things have gone so beyond on that.
you might remember i was extremelyyy depressed about going to private school. things have gone way beyond that, also.
i'll put it all behind a cut.
( life. )
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[Nov 18 06 ` 2 02 am] |
yeah. i didnt even mean to take this picture.
i was using the webcam to check my hair because i'm a fucking queer and i accidentally clicked the button.
but i kind of like it.
and i don't really like that one but i just thought it was funny how emo i looked.
kbye.
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[Nov 17 06 ` 9 29 pm] |
why do they insist on making me do this.
why can't they see that i'm absolutely miserable.
why are they spending thousands of dollars on something i don't even want.
tens of thousands of dollars.
in tuition gas money rental furniture clothes
i don't want any of it.
give me back my old life.
the one where i was happy.
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[Nov 15 06 ` 9 31 pm] |
i hate my parents.
i hate the fact that they went ahead and bought an apartment up there without even telling me.
i hate that i can't just be normal and live on my own when everyone else does.
i fucking hate holderness more than anything on this planet.
the entire town of plymouth for that matter.
the whole place can go up in fucking flames.
then maybe i can finally be happy.
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[Oct 31 06 ` 3 07 pm] |
dear mom and dad.
I’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won’t touch again
In my sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I’ll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby girl I never was a woman
Until I saw your brown eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling “Make it go away!”
Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered “How can you do this to me?”
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[Oct 17 06 ` 8 39 am] |
"hate is a strong word but i really really really don't like you."
anyone else think the plain white t's have kind of lost their talent?
i mean, that's probably the stupidest lyric i've ever heard.
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[Oct 15 06 ` 9 41 am] |
wellll yesterday i went out to outback with jorddd. then after that we went to krissy's house and hung out there for a few hours. it was prettyy fun.
( krissy's house! )
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[Oct 13 06 ` 4 34 pm] |
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ahhh sooo much has been going on.
so most recently i guess i got myself landed in the hospital. long story, but i just got out yesterday. because of this i almost got kicked out of holderness and basically i'm not allowed to be a boarding student for atleast two weeks. so while i'm still going to school at holderness i'm living at home.
so that involves getting up at 5 in the morning to drive for an hour to go to school. amazing.
i'm an idiot.
but anyways. i have pictures.
( KUA Day )
i have no classes until 330. time to sleeeep.
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[Sep 23 06 ` 11 08 pm] |
i'm hoooome. =]
school's alright i guess. i'm having enough fun.
but it feels so good to be at home.
today kendal and my mom picked me up from school,
then me kendal kayla and randa went out to eat.
then everyone left. and now kendal's coming back
once she gets out of work.
so i have tons of pictures to post, like tons.
but i'm only going to some from the past few days
because i'm too lazy to do all of them from like the
past month.
( PICTURES )
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[Sep 4 06 ` 3 44 pm] |
tomorrow is my last day at my house.
i'm not ready for this.
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[Aug 28 06 ` 6 08 pm] |
went to york with hannah!
( skdjfas;df )
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[Aug 25 06 ` 11 59 pm] |
been at kendal's like everynightt.
she came over last night.
went to the mall todayy and met sean nick derik and jon..? i think.
came home, now i'm at kendal's. fuck. yeah.
( bahahhhjalk )
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[Aug 21 06 ` 10 24 pm] |
slept over kendal's last night.
phone until like 6 in the morning basically.
went to the mall today. did a loooot of school shopping.
still not looking forward to school;
whatever.
came home. tom gave me and kendal a ride to ballards.
walked home from ballards.
nick randomly shows up on the street.
kendal rode on the hood of his car and it was pretty funny.
went to nora's house with kendal. hung out with her tom craig and some other kid.
we basically all sat around and tom and the other kid played guitar
and sang blink 182.
and then me kendal and nora screamed fall out boy because we're just losers.
kbye.
( pictures )
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[Aug 19 06 ` 4 29 pm] |
hung out with krissy jord kayla and jackie last night.
spent all day with jord and krisssss.
tonight = jord and kriss and hopefully lysa.
tomorrow = jord kris lysa my cousin iann and maybe his friend.?
idk. but i'm loving this.
left around noon for a walk, didn't come back until around 4. went to milanos ballards and rollins. sweeet.
( walllk )
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[Aug 11 06 ` 9 48 pm] |
yeahh. pretty much did nothing past two days.
worked all day today. well kind of worked. mostly just sat around with kristen.
watched failure to launch.
went swimming with kayy.
that's it.
( pictures )
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[Aug 10 06 ` 4 40 pm] |
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said goodbye to alicia yesterday =[. so sad. i miss her soooo much.
virginia sucks.
sadye brought me to outback. as of two days ago i had the queensland salad 3 out of the past 4 nights.
but i'm taking a break. i think i'm addicted. bahaha.
they know me there now, and i'm almost embarassed to walk in.
saw pirates 2 again yesterday with kayla... again.
everything goes quiet after the preview for accepted and ryan yells out
"THAT. LOOKS. GOOD!"
it was funny shit.
walked tooo milanos today with jord and nicole.
going swimming in like an hour.
i love summer.
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